2dae work was so so...im very worried actually that MW wld scold me tml due to the defer case and also the transfer of course...bcoz the case was since 9 mar..haiz...im so worried she mite say im sittin' on it coz its e end of e mth...haiz....it bother's mi alot coz im so worried she'l blame mi...haiz....wen 2 vivian b4 leaving e office bt sigh....she oso cnt do netink coz e defer case is btwn mi n PE...n transfer case is btwn mi n MW's bestie.....argh...!!!wen wil al e shit @ work cum 2 an end....or shal i say shit in life...
n itz thursday nite n im @ home tinkin' wil i c him tml? hmmz...i reli duno n i doubt he'l mit mi tml.....for the past 2days his been actin' differently....no doubt he din hola mi up ytdae nite wen he said he wld bt he did leave a miz kal thou...n he even sms mi in e mrg 2 apologies 4 nt kalin' mi 2 kiz mi gdnite b4 i sms him...hmmz....im so afraid this is another rebound moment 4 him 2wards mi...so tired if its true....
he did told mi on tues nite tt he aint gona mit mi on saturday coz he hv soccer?soccer on sat??4 real???s much s i 1 2 blieve its true another part of mi have e hesitation 2 do so...coz e laz time he told mi he have soccer session with his bro, he actually wen club wit his guyfrenz...haiz....sat is our day bt i duno hw he cn jz say no 2 mi...perhaps his jz nt tt into mi nemore..sum1 reminded mi nt 2 assume stuff bt sumhw mi guts r always true so hw cn i nt blieve?haiz...so which 1 shld i blieve?another non-stop confusion...
i duno if i shld make e song tt ive composed 4 him these few days...?was tinkin' it cld reli b e laz time we're so called celebratin' anni....mite s wel jz give al tt i hv...hd plans 2 cook 4 him his fav. dish tt i nvr did cooked b4..i duno if its worth doin' so a nt...bt i do rmbr wt ppl said...giv e bez shot coz u'l nvr noe wen is e nxt time u cn do it....haiz....
i wish i c e future so i noe hw 2 overcome any situation...haiz...
mentally tired....
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