portdickson trip finali arrived....

e day ive been waitin' 4 have arrived......im cluelez....im nt sure wt mi mind is tinkin'.....im s confused s b4........i duno by his reactions is he 4 real or is it jz another rebound&fun tinngy.......haiz....its a holidae bt mi mind isnt @ ease &sumhw cnt b @ ease even though i tried so badly......haiz.............shld i blieve tt tiz time his 4 real abt tiz rship?i wish i hv a clue.....
I wish i hv an answr soon.....gdnite world...

portdickson trip finali arrived....

e day ive been waitin' 4 have arrived......im cluelez....im nt sure wt mi mind is tinkin'.....im s confused s b4........i duno by his reactions is he 4 real or is it jz another rebound&fun tinngy.......haiz....its a holidae bt mi mind isnt @ ease &sumhw cnt b @ ease even though i tried so badly......haiz.............shld i blieve tt tiz time his 4 real abt tiz rship?i wish i hv a clue.....
I wish i hv an answr soon.....gdnite world...

blieve in gut feelin' or let it slip....

s usual another shitty weekend....

already yesterday i felt horrible @ nite b4 we part n nw again feelin' shitty s eva...wen u sang those songs i c thru u tt ure hurtin' inside coz she's nw in luv wit sum1 else nt u..n its e same old shit of y she left u in e pass...im nt sure if im over reactin' bt i jz wana noe wts in ur mind n heart....seriously........

n tiz mrg.....rec'd sms frm him...he told mi tt his out wit his homies..so i tot ok so his out n ltr found out he left abt 5 or 6pm duno 2 whr....n e bez part ppl sms nvr rply...n wen finali asked whr is he...he said he was with 1 of his homies....gosh...smells sumtink fishy sumhw...shld i stick 2 mi gut feelin' or shld i let it slip??i doubt his wit his homies...feels lk his wit sum1 bt definitely nt her...i jz wana noe e truth ttz all...is tt so much 2 ask 4??gosh...frm 8pm bcum 8.30pm...n @ 8.45pm sms gona leave in 10mins time....@ 9.15pm is stil sumwhr quiet...wtf???seriously....y cnt jz say we'l get ur stuff tml n 2dae jz change $ instead of sayin' tml stil cn get rite....wth....gosh....so mani things 2 do tml....mit e dealer tml...then wana gt mi stuff tml...then wen can hv sum peaceful dinner 2gthr??gosh.....

y muz u owaez spoil mi mood???seriously......wt e hel is wrong wit u??so freakin' tired of al e f**kin' bulshit!!i wish i can read ur mind so tt i can jz gt mi ass off ur world....

arghh!!!!!!!!

no mood friday

cnt blieve it's friday n im stuck @ home coz evry1 is bz n onc aint wana mit mi...haiz...work lil sux s usual due 2 e same person....then wen 4 waxin' in twn n met mumi @ novena 4 dinner n wen home...wen u hv no mood it juz killz u dwn mentally & physically.....even e food tt u take doesnt taste gd coz no appetite 2 eat....reach home, wash up, pray then decided to take a stroll dwn e normal path 2 e beach.........

im so worried tt al tiz iz gona lead 2 depression.....nt tinkin' too much bt its lk frm insomnia then lost of appetite then no mood.....gosh...n e bez part is due to al tiz strez e time of e mth is delayed...haiz...hope it'l cum 2nite or tml...

nw bk 2 onc coz his oso 1 of e reason im tiz wae....im confused....i reli wana noe y doesnt he wana mit mi bt instead mit up wit his frenz...i noe e particular fren is reli ur gdfren bt stil?wtf!sumhw i wish they din even cum bother lukin' him up...coz al they do was make mi life miserable or shall i say our relationship bcum relationshit....!!!!!bt then again...things hapen 4 a reason.....


n lazly nw im tinkin' onc is gona mit mi tml a nt.....?since he said he isnt i wonder hu is he gona hangout wit?i tink its e gdfren uh since she's single mingle....if its reli e case then a big 'OUCH!' bt then again hv 2 endure rite til end e trip....sigh....newae feel so lazie 2 type oredi so guez tiz iz al 4 nw...

nitez....