wen out wit onc 2 watch gnomeo&juliet...aftr tt was suppoz 2 mit dut & tek2 bt end up mittin' daya instead n wen home aftr tt...daya wasnt feelin' gd by e sound of her voice wen she called...so straight away called my my gfs to say i cnt mit them...wish i cld stay n kip her co. al nite long bt then again i cnt...hw pathetic it is wen cash isnt in favour.....n was tinkin' of mittin' dut & tek2 stil bt dut wasnt able to do so & since tek2 wit boyfie 4 karaoke sessions din felt lk joinin'...n 4 a gal lk mi hu dun do karaoke n suddenly wanting 2 do it means she's totally nt ok ttz wt i said wen tek2 wen she asked...haha...nvr wanted 2 do karaoke until lately jz feel lk doin' so coz sumhw i feel lk in a way it can make me speak out mi mind coz of e meaningful lyrics....weird eh?i noe..hahahaha...
newae i was so hapi initiali wen he said he cn mit mi earlier bt then jz wen i tot e dae wld end up a better 1 it din...sigh.....nt oni did he he nt miz kal to say he reached home bt there wasnt any smses 2 even say his too tired 2 kiz mi thru e fone at all...kal bt to no avail s wel...haiz...i reli wonder why is he doing al this....doesnt he have anymore feelin'z 4 mi or a reminder 2 him that what his doing is just stabbin' mi heart wit his actions?gosh.....
I wish thr's an xpreso 2 b taken in order for me to avoid feelin' lk tiz...
2dae wen i woke up i jz felt lk droppin' him a 'muackzz' msg instead of usual gdmorning msg n he did rplied jz 'muackz'....i wish he'd say y he didnt done e miz kal tingy n rply 2 mi sms bt i guez i'l jz let it slip again...aftral his workin' 2dae n i dun1 2 spoil his day or either way coz i hv limited time wit him left...given e fact tt aftr PD we're goin' separate ways i wish he'd treat me beta...n again im letting evrything 2 slip through each time i realized i hv limited him left..
I understd tt his bz wit work bt i dun gt it despite being bz, he stil can hv e time 2 go into fb n leavin' msgs on his profile then y cnt he msg mi....?haiz....it hurts alot especiali wen im his gf stil at tiz moment...we've gt no trust then nw communication is goin' dwn e drain....
n apparently today he said he wld b accompanying mi 2 buy mi stuff bt i duno if he'd cancel it...hmmz...lets c if i get to see him again 2dae..sumhw i doubt tt we'l b mittin' bt let jz c wt hapenz nxt....
gona do lil house chores so tt i can kip mi mind bz.....meanwhile....e song of 'bila cinta didusta' is in mi mind nw...(e song tt he played wen he knew hassan was contactin' mi) e song nw seems 2 b on a repeat playlist coz ttz wt im feelin' nw....y choose me wen u stil hv a feelin' 4 her n cnt let her go? :'(
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